I mean I keep thinking "I could massacare a bunch of people" it wouldn't quite fulfil the utter disintegration of society but it would at least be something, something would change. For one I would spend the rest of my life in prison and all the stuff I've been working towards will be impossible.
I dunno. I don't know what I want. I want to dance on the stars and create everything. I want to touch something.

I want to be real.

I don't think I exist at all I think, I don't know. I don't know what I want, and I dont know what I am afraid of. I'm afraid of everything. I'm afraid of nothing, it depends on my mood I dont know.