yeah. just in my last session i was kind of back and forth between am i faking or not. it gets confusing, and sometimes i'd rather it be fake because it's so difficult.

when the others aren't so active, i feel like it's all fake and then am confused why they are so quiet..but when they are more active, i don't quite know how to deal with them all and then wish it was fake except it's so hard to deny when it's right there and happening.

i have had hallucinations, delusions, etc. but they were during highly dissociative episodes and also probably mixed with PTSD reactions. it is hard to explain, but i have seen/hear things outside as well as inside. in recent years, been internal except a time under severe stress where i 'saw' an invisible man (not one of the others) in the back yard and thought he was going to hurt me. but he was just standing there watching me. it was weird because i know it wasn't real but at the same time wasn't sure. but as a child, i saw things more externally and had more delusional thinking.

i am unsure what they are related to diagnosis wise, but i know severe stress can cause that kind of thing.