allautumn, i think we are the same person heh.... When you talk about having social anxiety and how you shake from nervousness.... even down to playin better pool and being more entertaining... that is me!!! It all started for me when I was playin on a pool leauge and would get so nervous i couldn't even see in front of me... i'd feel sick to my stomach just trying to talk to people.. so i'd go in early, have a few drinks and well, by the end of the night i'd be hammered.... so i decided to quit playin altogether... but then i found myself sittin at home drinkin... alone... well what's the point of that? there's no anxiety in sitting there watching tv... i guess it just got to where i didn't feel normal unless i had a few drinks in me... i'm still at that point actually.... but every day is a new day i guess