Okay so first step:

Well. It doesn't make sense really xD haha. Sometimes your situation is unmanageable because first: you cannot change a person.
2nd: the only thing you can change is your attitude towards it. XD

There. I'll just be happy doing my own thing and trying not to please anyone or depending my happiness on anybody. XD

I will try and try but never force myself.

Whew. Studying is hard but i will study harder. K thanks bye to myself