I started the day feeling ill, traumatised and carrying a lot of fear inside me,this abated somewhat after my counselling session.I spent the rest of the day with my niece,we ate at nando's and saw a couple of films together,I had a lovely time,by the time I got home I was much more relaxed, and I felt freedom and peace for the first time in years.It has been one week and two days since I cut my mother out of my life after she was abusive to me for the last time, this has been going on since I was 5.I am 53 now.It has been two years and five months since I cut my abusive sister out of my life, but she has still been harassing me.I think cutting my mother out of my life too will increase the distance between me and my sister and make it more difficult for her to get to me.Hence the feeling of peace and freedom and now I also feel much safer and more secure and I am not frightened that I am alone in the world,though I am not totally alone cos I have my niece and she is loving and kind,although she has her own life to lead she has still been there for me.It has been a good day today I realised and understood a lot of things and feel I have experienced a lot of personal growth.