I have been in pain management for many years and my doctor knows I worry a lot about addiction but don't have any addictive component to my personality , I am not really a competitive type of person , I am more like a wet blanket , I had a landlord that was doing crazy things to try and keep me as a tenant , because I had a "cooling effect" on some of the more wild tenants , drinking and drug use went down and all that happy stuff associated with it , he was considering spending over 1 million dollars to remodel the place so I could stay, I told him that was plain crazy he would never get the money back ( that was really a good thing that he didn't because after I moved one of the tenants burned the complex down in an arson fire ) .

Being almost 50 I do really wonder what we are adding to the destruction of "newer generations" ,the breakup of the family unit , gangs and guns and drugs and always having to wonder who is lurking around , I thank God had a yard and a mom who was fantastic , but what about the people that didn't, the ones whose yard is the street and all the bad things that come with that , and then the pressure to succeed and be popular on the Internet, it's just putting young people in a negative loop , and we haven't even covered the skyrocketing incidence of depression and anxiety , I really think we are our own worst enemy and all of the things that people get involved in to escape is eroding what makes us remarkable "our brains" . The greatest threat to human survival is the humans in the race. I recently read that even though medications are failing people and depression I'd on the rise , big pharma has no interest in spending money on more effective drugs , there currently won't be any new anti depressants anywhere near trials for at least 10 years , of course there is big money being poured down the drain on things that I think are a waste like drugs to combat the horrible side-effects of neuroleptics , and experimental drugs to ward of dementia , I don't want to offend anyone here its not my intention , but don't people have to survive to get old to even get dementia, I don't trust big pharma to begin with but when they are trying to solve old age , before they find some better answers to get people to old age , something isn't right , maybe I think you simply or just am out of touch , but to me it seems like trying to save the people that are dying now "the boomers" is a day late and a dollar short effort, there is not going to be a huge die off like the boomers again for a very long time , even if they found the magic bullet tommorow by the time it was thru human trials FDA approved and priced so insurance formulates would pay for it , most of the boomers would be gone and the drugs patent would expire and big pharma would be crying we didn't make enough profit off it, so take on something important like depression ,so people get old enough to have dementia,and this is being said by a guy who could lose his brain to dementia tomorow, my diseases leave me amazingly wide open for early onset dementia.

I could die dumber than a box of rocks , but that would mean I said something intelligent before I died , nah not gonna happen !