I am someone who is slowly coming out of depression after 3 yrs of battling with it. My partner was not supportive initially when I did not have the diagnosis and hence I did not tell him.I did it all by my own and proud to say that it has made me stronger.

The problem is that we have had numerous arguments during this time and have grown apart. I know my hiding the depression had a role in this.Now in therapy,I am trying to let go of all the bad feelings and incidents that happened.I am unable to forgive him for being so rude and mean to me despite him not knowing about my illness. I hate the sight of him. I cannot seem to even talk to him. I'm thinking of going away for a bit to get my mind sorted. How do you decide if you want the relationship back? I am so confused. Every day I think of divorce in my mind but do not know what the right decision is. Right now,I hate the idea that I have to come back to live with him after the time away!

I suggested the idea of getting a small place for myself to him and he doesn't seem to agree on it. I can't imagine living like this anymore . Is it my depression that is making me hate him so much? How should I spend my time away from him? Should I try to make a decision about my marriage or should I just concentrate on my healing from depression?Everything is weighing me down.