I will change the subject I see that I worded it wrong.
I was on Disability from 2012 until this past Jan 2017. I have to apply again. I see I worded this wrong. I was asking should I feel guilty or if I am wrong in filing. Sorry it was so long I wanted to share what all I had been through in my life under a Mentally Abusive household until I was 18. I didn't know I had Anxiety and Depression and coped with it for about 40 years without help or medication. In 2008 I think I had a nervous breakdown and quit my last job. I didn't seek help until 2010 and worked with a Dr, that I see now, for about 2 years before we found the right Medication by trial an error. I really feel guilty of it but at the same time I know I can't work so this doesn't help my Severe Anxiety any.