Omg! LacunaCoiler and intentonhealing, your stories could be mine as well. It's crazy how when You're in an episode that your mind really believes it. Usually if my husband tries to tell me he thinks I'm in a phase (that's his word for episode) I tell him I'm not because I truly believe whatever my mind is telling me at the moment. But yes worst thing was hurting my husband because my head is all jacked up.