You've made a good start by reaching out on this forum. Congratulations! That's a good way to start connecting and building friendships. I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. If you need to talk I'm here. Maybe baby steps is realizing that you are an individual and starting to observe some of your particular likes and dislikes, not just what your family does. Do you drive? Are you able to go out on your own? Do you attend a church that has small groups also? Have you considered joining the YMCA or something similar? Have you talked with your parents about this? This could be an exciting time of discovering who you, the individual, are. Don't give up on having friends. It's doable. Best wishes and good luck.