rx..I have read some of your posts in the past and you sound so much like me.
They can not stabilize me with medication either and they get frustrated with me because I complain about every medication I am given except the Ativan.

Of course Ativan works on the same brain receptors as alcohol and that is why it works for me...and that is WHY they want to take me off of it and give me all this other crap that never works instead.

I feel your pain is all I can say...its very frustrating..debilitating...and I believe that is where MY anger comes from.