Hugs! Internet was my lifeline in my teens when I finally was allowed a private laptop for vocational school. Before then we had two hours of internet per week if we behaved well (arbitrary definition of good behavior subject to the whims of the parents) shared between three siblings.

Omg my dad doesn't pace for hours but he will rant, rant, rant, cut off internet, call us out to berate us. He used to hit us too when we were teens.

I sit quietly and agree with whatever he says too, I'm so sorry you experiences similarly. It's really unfair and wrong that this was done to you.

What's your relationship like with your brother, if I can ask?

My sister still keeps defending him to me...every time she criticises him, she defends him because she feels disloyal criticising him. I used to tell T I'm a horrible traitor whenever I talked about the parents.

I know my father is very lonely. Hea like a kid who was given a lot of conditional praise (he was the golden child in his family) and throws tantrums when he feels neglected or can't get his way.