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Old Apr 07, 2017, 08:49 AM
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I have never had a full time job for more than 6 months. I always start out positive (at my core I am an optimist) and I tell myself it'll be different this time. Then about two months in I start to dread it. Start to feel depressed and urges to self harm and intrusive thoughts (also suffer from OCD) about suicide. I am safe and not actively pursuing the venture, but it's eeking into my every day life. I no longer enjoy anything, when I come home I don't feel excited to relax, I just... exist. I have chronic kidney disease and am curious if I can get on disability if that will be enough to sustain me.
My boyfriend and I are moving next month to a new house. We can't afford for me to quit my job. I need to have an income of at least 2,000$ a month to afford living in the new house. If I had another way to make that much from home I would do it in a second. I'm chronically tired, in pain, sick, and occasionally mentally unstable. I feel stuck.
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