My social worker found me support from another agency, but I only work with this one guy from Morocco just now. Currently, I get 6 hours of support from this man each week. One day is for 3 hours. Usually it's from 11 to 2. The other day is normally the same. He is due to go on holiday soon, so I want to try working with somebody else as a trial, because he keeps nipping my head all the time.

He starts his work schedule early in the mornings, and has multiple shifts with people before he meets me. He told me he got up at 6 one day and didn't eat his breakfast until 10, which is pretty silly. Not eating can hamper one's focus. Today for example, I suggested he either have something to eat on the go or get a rucksack which ain't even heavy, and pack his lunch in a small plastic tub like most intelligent people should do. You know? You can fill a flask with soup or water and the flask keeps it warm. Or you can put in a packet of oatcakes, with a little cheese, throw in a few herbal teabags, and make a sandwich to eat before bed, and put it in the fridge. These are suggestions, but he just doesn't care. He said soup is for at night, but whatever.

If what he says is correct, he has to see probably 3 or 4 other clients before he sees me, and then several more afterwards, which means he gets home late. On Wednesday for example, our shift started at 11 and finished at 2. But he needed to get a bus across the bridge to Fife in Scotland to see someone at 3 and I think he was due to support several others after that shift ended as well. So I got the impression he wanted to stay central in town rather than hop on a bus which meant he clearly stalled by going into nearby charity shops so we would miss the bus, but there was nothing to do.

He wanted to go to the council to pay his tax, and I told him I cannot go over road bridges because I am not a lover of heights. This is something he can easily arrange to sort out if he gets time off work. I've also got no interest in just playing pool with him either. If it's a nice day, we should be able to go for a nice stroll somewhere, yet even if it's cloudy with no rain scheduled, he complains it's too cold when it's not cold at all, and it just wastes time. In general though, he displays little enthusiasm in anything I say, or he just does not absorb information properly, and I noticed as well that he does not feel content to just do what I ask of him. He said he's the kind of guy who prefers going around different spots. Like if we go to have a hot chocolate in Costa, he then wants to go on a bus to someplace else which is the same sort of environment. But why bother?

Today, I asked him to see me at 11 at Asda when I sent him a text message this morning, because where I wanted to go for a walk is actually quite close to there. So if we had to meet near my house and get a bus to the area, the shift is only around 3 hours, not counting the time for heading back, which probably makes it only something like maybe 2 hours at a push. And so it made more sense to arrange to meet him directly next to Asda at 11 instead of getting a bus together at 11 which really felt silly to me, as it wasted around 40 minutes. But then he rabbited on about how the 'care plan' states we have to meet near where I reside, which I don't think is true. Even when we were in the park, I wanted to find a vintage grotto, and he just kept talking about looking for the exit, so he had no interest in my activity of choice whatsoever.

Even last week, he was incredibly annoying. We got a bus to a road near my friend's house, but there's another number of bus you can get which takes you marginally closer, like a few more bus stops. So he started moaning about having to walk down a street which took about a few minutes, tops. I'd planned on doing some filming on my iPhone, but he kept asking me to meet my friend by calling him, and I said I'd do it later because I just wanted to shoot a scene where I walked from the bus stop to the underpass close to the nearby pathway. It's not rocket science. Then he wanted to get a bus to the other Asda that day, and it was pointless. He also poured slush Vimto into a cup, didn't like the look of it, and asked if I wanted it. Once you squirt the liquid from the machine, you have to pay for it. He's just a tool.

What do you think of this guy? He's a kebab. Right?