I've been through most of your issues at one time or another. The weight gain due to Zyprexa, hating how you look in a photo, failing a semester of school due to depression and having to go back and clean up the mess, having no motivation and feeling sad about Facebook. I understand. You're not alone. It's tough. I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. Zyprexa is just no good as far as weight gain is it? One bright spot: you are already losing the weight! Congratulations! I don't have any advice for you regarding motivation because I'm struggling with that myself right now but wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you. You'll find good support on this forum. Please be gentle with yourself. Depression is vicious. If you need to talk or want to go more in depth with these issues I'm here.