I'm​ don't want to call pdoc because she will want to raise my zyprexa and I NEED to get off if that evil drug! Its ruining my liver and my cholesterol is 700+. What will she adjust once I'm really OFF zyprexa? Rexulti? That one's harder, since it only comes in a few different doses and you can't cut the pills up. (They're tiny.)

Plus, I keep having these waves of anxiety I guess they are. Must be because of my ceiling with a giant crack and water pooled up above it- ya think? There's also a second smaller crack over the stairs now! The maintenance woman came, but left saying something about a ladder but hasn't come back. At least, she's come and now I can quit waiting for her and the people who are to fix the problem don't work weekends so I can have my nice weekend with my friend tomorrow and Sunday! And no, pdoc won't prescribe an anti-anxiety meds. My anti-anxiety drug of choice is hot sex.

I am getting ready for my fun 24 hours. Washing a few clothes. Hopefully I'll be too distracted by my friend to think anything bad is happening. Or that he's an alien (I thought this once. In fact, I just saw part of my psych record from the ER that said,"Manic: Psychotic: Severely". I have no idea what I said that day!) Maintenance just left. They're fixing my ceiling/roof next week. Lord I'm glad that's over. Ok. End of post. </post>