Thanks Montana and allautumn. Yes I am going to distance myself as this to me is not a friendship.

I feel guilty today as in this post I showed anger towards her son. When I think about what that boy has endured in his life its not a mystery to why he behaves the way he does. I feel bad for him. He was taken from her almost 2 yrs ago and was doing well in the foster home. They wanted to adopt him but she fought it. She had considered adopting him to this family and to tell you all the truth (I was hoping she would have). Not to be mean but he was doing so well in school and his behaviors has improved dramatically. In my mind I felt that he would have more stability and a real chance to get on track. Since she has had him back he has really gone "down hill". He is only at a grade 2 level and is 11yrs old. This boy has the potential to do well but with her I can't help but worry for him.

Looking back at this post I wondered if it seemed like I am blaming her for my behavior when we were friends a long time ago. I hope it did not seem this way. I make my own choices and when I decided to pull back from her is because of the temptations of drinking. I know in AA they stressed the fact that its sometimes needed to find different friendships that don't involve alcohol. But it was not just this. So many more issues stemed from this friendship. For me the things that she was invovled with was not what I wanted in life.

I have to say I am feeling sad about giving myself hope for a friendship that I need so bad right now. I don't have any close friends that live here. I think feeling lonely is part of all this. But this kind of friendship is unhealthy and I don't want it. I have to step away from this or it will just bring me down even more.

Justy