I recently went through something similar. I've been seeing my T for 18 months, and a few months ago, things just got hard. I would leave most sessions feeling...I don't even know what. The session could be fine, normal, but in the car on the drive home, I'd start feeling something--sad, disappointed, angry. Lots and lots of feelings between sessions.

I started feeling like he was frustrated, impatient, tired of me, like I'd burned him out or used him up. (This is not due to anything he did or didn't do.) And then, all of a sudden, something shifted and a few weeks ago I just opened up, went deep, talked about things I have been unable to talk about thus far (love) and things feel different now. Hugely different.

I'm not sure what to think. I may have been getting ready to do really good/hard work and that was part of the lead up. Or maybe I took the leap and am doing good/hard work because the spinning and ruminating and feeling bad just felt so bad. Maybe he was frustrated at our lack of progress and I sensed that, or, more likely, I was projecting onto him. Regardless, I am in a COMPLETELY different place almost overnight. All of a sudden the trust goes so much deeper and we have had a string of good (intense, but good) sessions and I feel shockingly stable between sessions considering the content of what I'm talking about is stuff I have avoided, that was simply too painful or overwhelming, for the past year and a half.

So...who knows. Maybe you're getting ready to go deep and are simply hesitating? Maybe this will propel you forward? Maybe it's just random and part of this wild, crazy journey? Hang in there!