Crying is a cleansing, Dragon. It's been proven that tears wash away impurities in your system, especially if we're hurting over something. You must have done quite a bit of cleansing.
I needed the release for sure, but I wanted to stop. The tears kept coming. Not much I could do about it. It might not have felt so lonely if I had someone hold me. That was my own doing, though.
I hope things are getting better for you. I'm still rooting for you.
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.