So, for the past 3 days I have been stuck at home, no driving, all meds put away, no alcohol, and constant supervision. It was this or the hospital, but thanks to my therapist vouching for my huband, the pdoc let me go home. The history behind this involves bad decisions on my part.

Now I need to figure out how to get things back to normal at my appointment on Tuesday. The sad thing is that I still cannot come completely clean. I have lied to both my therapist and pdoc lots over the years, but never llies that mattered. Just little things like whether I am drinking or not (alcoholic) or taking my meds correctly-I forget sometimes.

Now I find that I am at the mercy of these two doctors-three if you count my family doctor who I will also see on Monday. I could fire them, but there is my husband, the one who is in complete support and who I love.

I don't want to end up in the hospital! If I end up there, I will be #4 in two generation of women in my family.

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