Thanks for the update LuLu.... been wondering how you were doing.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers as you adjust to the changes you are facing. I'm glad you have many supportive people around you. Be sure to lean on them. Your peace will be challenged and so will your resolve. Take good care of your whole self -- physical, emotional, mental and spiritual.

You mentioned concern about following old patterns... hoping this time to be different. You will have to orchestrate things to be different LuLu. It won't happen by itself. I'm sure you know that but it doesn't hurt to be reminded in times like these.

It's going to take some hard work for you to avoid old patterns. You might want to consider working with someone through some Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. There are probably some good sources of self-help here on PC that can help you reprogram some of your thinking. Teach you how to avoid some of those old habits and thought processes.

You need to put on a strong armour of self awareness if you want to stay strong and maintain your peace. Best way to resist the doubting days ahead is to focus on validating every part of who you are.

You sound like an amazing, loving and wise woman who knows what she needs and isn't afraid to make it happen.

Take good care....