These past few days, my energy level is so low. I was actually feeling pretty high energy a few days before that, so I guess there's some cycling going on here. I'm trying not to spend too much money, but I am like a kid in a candy store lately, buying anything. I'll probably go on a trip soon, but haven't gotten that far yet. Part of the reason might be because I'm trying to make up from all the time where I've felt still empty (and probably still do, but it's masked). I hope this weekend goes okay. A little lonely lately.

I reached out to someone who is hard to get in touch with to see if maybe we can spend some time together, but he might be working night shift...I guess I'll just have to see. I'm leaning towards thinking it will be a lonely weekend, and if that's the case, maybe I'll do more shopping again to pass the time and buy some things. I am absolutely dreading work. I am not confident in my ability to focus on work, and it's only getting worse. I hope I'm not gonna crash, but this is sometimes the way it all plays out.