Therapist,

I've felt a desire all week to say something to you, but I didn't have words for it. The desire is much stronger today, and I still don't have words for it. Is it reassurance? I'd really like to see your smile that means that everything is good and okay. I'd like to hear from you, "We've been dealing with heavy stuff the last few sessions. I wanted you to know that I respect that you come every week. You're here and ready to work. You and I are good. I'm with you. We are strong."

One time you said, "That's okay. You're never too much, MBM. Never too much." I don't know how much you meant it, but I wrote it down and put it on my computer. I'm worried to tell you or ask about it again in case you don't really feel quite that way.

You didn't give me a sticky note last session. I wish you had.

I wish I could talk to you right now.

Me