you havent failed at all. if youre still here, talking to us then obviously you havent failed. and dont compare yourself to these "successful relationships". we never know what goes on behind closed doors. they could be just as unhappy and abusive as your past relationships. nothing is without its faults and that includes people.

be thankful that you are smart enough to see yourself from an outside perspective. many people would just sulk and never try to better their situation. but youre here, youre talking and youre trying. thats all you can really ask for. were all here for you.