I have been having persistent "bad thoughts" all day today. I can't remember the rules for posting about this, so I'll leave it at that. I'm having thoughts...not an intent to take action.

I saw T today. I was feeling "meh" then. It worsened after I returned home. I called her, so she knows about it. She called me this evening around 7:30 to check on me. I promised I would keep safe.

There are a few bad things that have happened all at the same time. I can't visualize how to solve these problems. It's too hard. And there is no rest.