For the last month or so I have been hypo boarding on manic. Most of it was fabulous but towards the end I became very dark in the evenings then finally switched to depressed a few days ago. The depression is bad. i want to end it all and have lost all hope. Thankfully, I am IP, I guess but many times I want to run away and as it is a voluntary ward I can, although they will send the police after me. The staff (well most) are caring and nice but I am still scared of them. Paranoid they are trying to poison me with their drugs.

Now my pdoc wants me on another drug, an anti-depressant. I have been on them before and I often go hypomanic, then mixed, then depressed again but I am so longing to be hypo I am giving it a try. I cannot stand this depression even though it has been relatively short. Going from Hypo/manic highs to this is devastating. I just want it all to end.

So, do you think trying the med is the right thing to do? My doc is all for it as he wants to kickstart me out of depression. He is starting me on 10mg a day so very low and I will be monitored closely. Is it worth giving it a try to get me out of this hole, especially when I have a plan and am close to going through with it?

What are your experiences with an SSRI like Fluoxetine (Prozac)?