I'm with you. My depressions are so much more destructive than my manias--overdosing, etc.

I think I have mostly hypomania & mixed as I do overspend, have reckless behavior, but nothing that is causing my family to fall apart (unlike the depression)--but boy, I feel GOOD when in the mania states & feel so BAD in the depression. So, of course, it is extremely difficult for me to give up the manias. I welcome the energy surges, the lack of sleep, the just sheer joy I feel.--Suzy