I'm struggling. I feel very anxious, feeling it physically and emotionally, like I'm just sick. I think im either feeling the bad type of hypo with irritability or possibly mixed. I'm very impulsive. My mind is full of ideas. Things are beginning to spin around. There's certain decisions I feel I might make based on my state of mind because I can't turn off the thoughts. Things are getting worse in a different kind of way. I keep spending money.
I ask am I just treating myself to things? But all the signs are there that I'm not well, barely functioning. Sometimes I feel I've tried everything. I just can't take it with all this. It's like a curse...I think im cycling. There were a few days of true hypo...now it's just getting worse, but it's definitely more on the manic side.