I was in therapy, but told my T i'm having doubts now. Not sure i want to see her. got an appt. with a Psych next month, and I refuse to take meds.

Thanks for everyone's replies, It sort of helped a bit - but i'm still completely .. crap.

I might speak to the psych about it, but i'm not sure yet. to be honest, i'd rather keep my mouth closed in reality.
It's easy to talk on here as I don't really have to express it as such, it's more like writing a diary. whereas in person, face to face with a T, i end up going quiet, or not finishing sentences. I also find it impossible to talk to them about certain things because I feel such a failure.
I don't know, we'll see.
Thanks again everyone.

Kelly. x