What does one do when she is thinking about suicide a lot, but she somewhat knows she won't do it. At least not yet.
Those thoughts are not like plans, but could be of various nature, like instinctively imagining it when in an unpleasant moment (which lately happens all the time). Other times just contemplating on it...Also lately I'm obsessed with the subject as in movies, read articles and studies.
It just is in my mind VERY often and it doesn't seem to go away.
I'm afraid to tell my therapist, again my stupid fears of embarrasment.
Or even I'm afraid he won't take me seriously. I don't know.
Sometimes the thoughts are very strong and as my moods are changing a lot I don't know where this is going.

I hope I didn't break some rule with this post, I'm not currently in "crisis", I guess (though no idea what that means exactly)