Hey Airways

Sorry i know this is a bit late but i have a few thoughts from the younger perspective. This is only from my experience, so i do not wish to make any assumptions or say the wrong thing and i apologise if i do!

I have an older sister who is 4yrs ahead of me. It isn't masses but she left for uni when i had just turned 14yrs (and i was a horrid teenager!). All she really remembered of me was that awful teenager, and i felt she acted towards me, when she returned, in the same way as she did when she last lived with us. Since moving to uni myself i have come to understand how difficult it may have been for her to come back to a family that has changed quite a lot during her time away, but at the time i just felt as if i couldn't break out and be the person i was 'now' in front of her (because of her assumptions).

For the last few years i haven't really had that much of a relationship with her. I have 2 other sisters (one even lives in the same city as me) and i get on really well with both of them, so i do feel it is a shame to not have the same friendship with her. But for a long while even though i knew she was trying to be friends with me and find out more about me, i actually resisted it because i was just finding my feet and to be perfectly selfishly honest - i had other things that were more important to me at the time! I just felt uneasy around her because i felt i reversed into that surly 14yr old.

Having said all that she never stopped trying, bless her, and i am very grateful for that. One time when she phoned me, i was depressed and had to say i could not talk and do you know what she did?? - she sent me a care package! A week later she phoned simply to say that even though we don't get on that well, and we don't know each other very much, she was always here for me as a sister.

Do you know what? The next time i was crying alone i found I was actually able to call her!

I'm not sure what point i was trying to make is...maybe that sometimes us young'uns don't really understand what things mean and how to react because we're not actually experienced and we're just a few steps behind. As i get older - i'm really starting to truly appreciate that she never gave up on me. But also that i am gaining the confidence to reveal the 'new' me.