I never believed I was Idealizing/Devaluating, but maybe I really am.

I'm in that post-coital bliss, feeling truly loving and secure with h.

Oh well... I am what I am. I'm just gonna enjoy the good times and try to stop this crazy dance that brings on the bad times.

Am I really idealizing him? I can logically list his faults right now. I don't see him as all good or all bad. I'm just happy and content.

I'm really confused about BPD or not. It doesn't matter, I guess. As long as I can control myself better and not SH.