Yes....and I/we still feel that way...sober.

We are undergoing a change....a swing in control. The guys have assumed outward image control and are making physical changes. It's just safer that way....to become more socially acceptable, hidden and unseen....less of a target.

As far as dealing with everything else.....idk.

We can never manage to last a year on a job because people are watching...and can see what I can't see. It's very hard to endure.