Hey. I am sorry you are struggling. I wish I had some wise words to give you comfort. But just know that I'm listening and I hear you. I have felt that kind of pain and it seems intolerable.

Can you find something to distract yourself. Or put that idea on hold, even just for 1 day. Go back to worrying about it tomorrow, when maybe things will look different?

If it gets to be too much, call someone. A hotline, your doctor, a friend. Reach out for some live help. I know that is easier to say than to do. But please do whatever you need to stay safe. Hang in there. You are not alone. ((Hugs))