I think I know what you're saying. When the mind is being put through hell, it becomes a master at protecting itself for as long as the hell remains part of your daily life. When you're out of the fire and into the frying pan, it's almost like it operates better in the fire, because that's what it broke apart and re-created itself to do. Now the mind has to figure out how to piece itself together again.

To the second part, I know I'm a cyber person, but you really have helped me. Just reading your posts help me because I know that I'm not alone. Granted, I don't wish this on anyone, but having someone out there who gets it can make this a little more bearable. Having you on here is reassuring and ultimately has been my saving grace time and time again. I want to thank you for that.