I wish that I can go off meds cold turkey, too...but psych meds gets so ingrained into ones brain's chemical composition (especially Lamictal) that it can cause seizures and go haywire.
I'm more scared of the drug then I is of bipolar to tell you the truth so much that I'm scared of missing a dose. I know by 2.5 days of not taking anything...l'll be curled up in a crying ball...again. No thank you.

As fast as you went up on lamictal 10mg a week...the same can be said in going down. I'm presently working down to 300 a day from 400...and its been a few months a getting there.

I'm sorry that you are going through what you are going through...I only hope and wish that it gets better.