T,

I wish

I wouldn't have had to go through all this pain.
I wish I wouldn't care so much right now.
I wish I'd just do what I want, although I know it's self destructive and stuff. I wish I wouldn't care how I affect other people.

You know, in a way, I achieved everything I ever wanted. I moved out. I have something you could call friends. I'm in a relationship. My life is perfect.

I'm ungrateful. To you, my parents, everyone in my life. I'm sorry for that. I'm trying, I'm trying really hard. I just don't know what I'm doing wrong...