T's always trying to get me to figure out what I want to do. She knows I can do more than what I'm doing now. I know I can, too. But I don't know WHAT, so I stay where I am. I like my current job - well, when I'm not on this stupid project that I'm on now. The problem at work and yes it feels like a problem to me, is that when a person exceeds expectations, it earns them initially yes promotion to Sr CSA which I got a year and a half ago or something, but after that, it just earns you more work. Like you get put on projects "assisting" other departments whose employees make more money because it's harder work - but they still pay us the same. I hate this current project so much but I feel like I can't do anything to get out of it. Friday was so bad I think I shared, that I was tempted to call my old pdoc and ask for a prescription for xanax or something. Or maybe a note from t that says I can't take these calls. I feel like this project is making me go backwards in my efforts at improving my mental health and I hate it. I thought maybe that doing this (and other projects) would look good on my resume and at least get me an interviews when I apply for other positions, but the last 2 I've applied for, they didn't even bother to acknowledge with a personal email let alone an interview - all I got was the generic form letter saying basically "thanks but no thanks." I don't want to change companies, because I love all the people I work with, and I love my "normal" job too, and even most of the projects, but this current one is just messing with my head. So because I don't know exactly what I want to be, I don't have a goal to work towards, so I stay where I'm at. For a "call center" (we do more that the normal call center, but we're still basically a call center) I make damn good money for this area - most call centers pay around $7 an hour less than I make. So I'm staying put for now and praying for the end of this project. Last I heard, it's supposed to be over by June.