So, we went to a family party last night, my family's party.
My boyfriend and I are an interracial couple. I'm Indian and he's white.
I don't think he's been around that many Indian people before, haha.
We'd spent 2 weeks with his family up north and I hadn't really spent much time with mine since we got back so I was really happy to be there: drinking, dancing, loving.
I believe your true person is who you are when you're happily drunk.
I'm loud, overprotective, friendly, a total schmooze- I love to have fun.
And that's exactly how I was last night.
My man and I have been together for over 2 1/2 years. We've seen each other at most of our states.
And yet, he tells me today that i was "embarrassing" myself last night, which I don't feel is true.
I felt he was projecting.
So I asked if I did anything wrong:
"You were drunk, stumbling, annoying your cousins and I don't like seeing you like that."
"Fine. Is that all I did?"
"You disappeared and we couldn't find you for a while,"
"I was in the bathroom."

My issue:
I'm never embarrassed of him, so it hurts to hear that. Especially when he's done so much worse than I have! When I'm happily drunk, I get sick and go to bed. When my boy is, it's a different story.
We're talking licking shots off the floor, vomiting all over himself, falling asleep in fast food joints, in parking lots- none of it ever phased me. (We're not crazy like this anymore, disclaimer.)

I just feel like being drunk is such a sensitive state where true emotions come out.
And if he's embarrassed of me happy- what the hell does that mean?

Am I reading too much into this? I do that.
I mentioned our races because maybe it was culture shock and misunderstanding how my family communicates with each other?