This is how I've been feeling the past few days. At first a few days ago, I was in my room yesterday, irritable and angry towards different people, but a lot of ideas were flowing through my head. It was kind of difficult to keep up with my thoughts, but over the past week, I've also been treating myself to all kinds of things and trying new things, but spending a lot of money. I'm extremely stubborn and quick to anger about things that some might see as disproportional to the situation.

In between, I feel relentless...like nobody could stop me. I am very impulsive with a lot of ideas. For instance, I am determined to fly to Florida and see a friend in a month and a half. My mood ranges from irritable to anxious to excited about different plans.

Also, I woke up yesterday and decided I will follow through with a plan to get cosmetic surgery and called various friends to see if they will stay with me/pick me up (for instance, if one friend can't do it, I'll have a back up). Usually, I rely on my mom for stuff like that (to be there for me for a surgery), but I know she won't approve, so she wouldn't go and be there for me...even though I am over a decade past legal age, she is stubborn about things against her beliefs. I feel like a liar by not telling her and feel bad betraying her, but I feel determined and am working out a plot so I won't tell her until it is done. Keep in mind, this is only a recent idea. My one friend was quite shocked, and she knows me well, but she will help me and go with me to the surgery, although she doesn't drive. We will take a taxi. I must schedule off work...but first got to get a consultation.

On top of it all, I'm spending a lot of money shopping. I am quick to get irritable when it comes to certain people, but I'm in my own little world where I feel nobody can stop me. It is hard to sleep with all that's in my head. Sometimes I want to turn it off. If I go to bed too early, sometimes I hear things and bits of conversations in my head that come randomly, but not all the time. My thoughts seem to jump to different ideas and ways to put them into action. I know that since I had a low energy depression, maybe some of the depression is lifting and leading to this behavior. I don't feel super "happy" hypo, more determined, agitated, goal-oriented.

Does this sound hypo, or mixed? I want to kind of be aware so I can watch out and be cautious. I sense my insight is disappearing, because it is hard to stop myself, but at least I have enough insight to ask you all what you think. Please help.