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Originally Posted by shezbut
No matter where I am, what I am doing (or trying to do), I just don't cut it. I try *so hard* ~ but I can't do it! I feel absolutely hopeless. I am tired of fighting hard, only to find out that my fighting hurt those that I'm being paid to care for. I cannot continue making these big mistakes. I freaking HATE myself. I can't do anything!! What in the hell is wrong with me?? I'm furious with myself!
I'm never going to get anywhere in life.
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It sounds like you are way to HARD on yourself. You need to give yourself a little more credit and give yourself a break. What about letting other people you love help you out for a change. Try not to take things so seriously in life. One thing that isn't bs is that laughing really is the best medicine. I've been very depressed lately almost to the point where I'm paralyzed. What I've been doing is putting on a 'stand up comedy" dvd. It helps release something to your brain. I don't know what but it does. Remember you are a good person. God doesn't make failures and people that don't deserve happiness. There is a way out of this. I can think of a lot for you. Reply to me and I'll give you a few.