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Originally Posted by lilypup
I am at a loss.
You wouldn't believe the amount of stuff I do weekly and daily to keep depression at bay. I even went to a horse therapy day yesterday. I cried for three hours. Fortunately, the leader knew all about depression so it worked out.
A friend of mine this morning suggested either my Wellbutrin has pooped out or that I might try ECT. I am scared to death of ECT.
I'm not down in bed, but I sit a lot on the couch. It's not a black hole...more of a low level sadness that can erupt into tears anytime.
I am 57 and this is no way to live life.
Thanks for reading. 
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Hi there. We are almost the same age and I know how it feels to be depressed. I would describe my depression the same way I'm not in a black hole, but it's pretty close. I'm so sick of feeling this way. I just want to return to the person I used to be before this stormy cloud came over me. I joined this site today because I wanted to see that other people suffer from this and I'm not alone. I used to be able to talk to my parents about this 'depression stuff' and they would always help me work through it. They have passed now and I miss them so much. They've been gone awhile now and I still miss them. My husband and grown kids try to help me, but they don't get what depression is so it's tough for them to help me. I totally get that they don't understand what depression is because I was never depressed until I was in my 30's.
What I think is I need is a person that lives close to me that is going through the same type stuff as me. We can help each other. I live in the San Francisco Bay Area. If you know understand what I'm saying please reply. I've been to so many docs & tried so many antidepressants and still it hasn't helped. I've been to a few therapists for Cognitive Behavior Therapy but I sometimes think they are there for the money. A regular person that gets what you're going through I think would be the answer. For me anyways. Tell me how you're feeling today? I have a few good things you could try.