Everyday lately I find myself wishing I would die. Not to help it along or etc but just be done with life. Nobody is really aware. It's ok though bc when they have been in the past, it only angered them.

I hate feeling this way bc there is no rhyme or reason for it and I know I am strong enough to push it off ... but for some reason, part of me right now, doesn't want to push it off. So I sit here battling a confusing but deadly silent battle within myself - and still don't have any answers.