Wander-Try to hang on. Maybe post your plots instead on enacting them? For some of us, our worst episodes pass if we can just survive the ride. You may also want to run because everyone wants to be free--this is why involuntary IP sometimes does more harm than good. Plot ways to seem "normal" to the staff.

I am sorry you are feeling out of control. You posts are usually so kind, gentle, sweet, loving--that kind of thing. With time, that side of you will be back. We all want you to feel better.

I hope some nurses come on shift that make you feel more secure. Two years ago when I had pneumonia in the hospital (could not sleep because of difficulty breathing, the oxygen monitor would make a loud sound everytime I starting drifting), the night shift nurse (they would not leave me in my room alone) would frequently fall asleep. Yes, some nurses are not very conscientious (but others are great). When I was in the hospital, many times, the better quality nurses seemed to be on day shift. Daytime is here so I hope you have a better nurse now. Nurses matter so much when we are sick.