Hey. for the last few weeks every day I've been super down. I sleep more than 12h a day and my life's miserable. my finals are in 1.5 months and I haven't read a thing. there's so much to study. If I don't succeeded then I will literally have to kill myself (before you say not passing isn't the end of the world in my country it is the end of the world)
I can't even look at my books. specially that god damn poetry and theology!
what can I do? I physically can't get myself to do it.
whenever I study or force myself I end up being angry for a long time (the effects last a few days. I tap my finger very hard on my desk do everything with more force (like put the cup on my desk harder) and I just feel super anxious and everything, constantly tapping my foot to the floor. wanting to scream every time something little happens (net DC etc))