I thought I was doing ok... Funny how your brain can lie to you... I've just been deluding myself that I'm coping. Because it's what I need to believe, to stop the world around me falling apart.
I'm still managing basic self care in order to go to work... But that's about it. I've lost interest in just about everything else. The 2 houses I live between are in a dreadful state, I just do the bare minimum and nothing else... I don't go out anymore except to work, I've lost touch with people and can't be bothered to reestablish contact. I only engage with others when I have to, otherwise I remain withdrawn.
The feelings of wanting to self destruct have been getting stronger and I'm not sure I can be bothered to keep fighting it. The inevitable will happen eventually.