Hey, guys, this is my first post here.

Pretty much all my life, I've suffered from mood fluctuations. The maximum time I've ever felt happy and normal on a regular basis has been maybe 2 months?

Typically, I get a few days every month that I feel happy, but I wouldn't call it euphoric or anything really wild. I just feel more like what I suppose a "normal" person feels on a daily basis. I don't do any reckless things during these times; I may be slightly more productive but nothing extreme; I don't stay up late working on stuff or anything like that. In fact, my behavior itself really doesn't change, just how I FEEL about everything changes. I feel calm, content, optimistic, more loving, and more connected to others.

On most days, I either feel blank, depressed, or angry/irritable. I sometimes get into the frame of mind of hating everyone and feeling superior to them and not giving a damn what they think, other times I feel extremely self-conscious and analyze everything people say to me (thinking that no one really likes me, etc).

My moods can change in a day, sometimes within the same day.

It's a rollercoaster and I desperately want to get off.

But every time I've seen a psychiatrist, they rule out bipolar disorder because my "highs" are really not that high, I guess? My highs probably don't even meet the criteria for hypomania either. Borderline has never even been considered, although I share some symptoms with it.

But I don't know. I'm so confused. What else could cause such rapid mood cycling?

I took Cymbalta for a few months and it seemed to help, but it started making me feel tired during the day (I think?) Then I stopped it cold-turkey (stupidly) and had a relapse of all my symptoms. A couple months ago, I started taking Wellbutrin, which seems to help prevent the EXTREME lows and does give me decent energy, but it really does very little for my mood swings.

My current therapist thinks I may have rapid cycling bipolar, and I'm going to see ANOTHER psychiatrist soon, but does anyone else have symptoms like these? Is it possible that it's depression that--for some reason--comes and goes? Any other ideas of what it could be? I know that I may not fit ANY particular disorder but I'd like to, just to inform my treatment.

P.S. I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do any drugs, I exercise regularly, I meditate, I eat pretty healthfully...I feel like I'm doing everything right and yet I can't break free.