Have you ever experienced the "feeling" of truly feeling safe? Do you have a memory of feeling safe? Are you able to feel it now?

I've been searching in my mind/memories to find a place in time that I felt safe. Ok. It's just not there. It is almost causing a panic because I can't find that place. The panic is coming from wondering if I will ever know that feeling. What DOES safe feel like?

My counselor and I have talked about this and I can't wrap my brain around or understand what the feeling would be. It's much like me trying to explain to him, what it feels like to me when I'm there but as a passenger. I don't have words to explain that, and I don't have experience to understand what safe feels like.

I think there is anger under the panic going on. It won't help to get mad. It won't fix it.

Does "safe" sound foreign to anyone else?

Has anyone else realized they didn't know what safe felt like, and then find it?