You should keep on posting here if it helps. Even if it is just to get it out. It's so hard having to live with everything locked away inside.
I am always just a pm away, I'm pretty good at listening (or I think so anyway)
I see you, and hear you.
((((((fuzzy)))))))
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Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go.
Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down.
Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left.
Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down.
Failure.
Failure - Breaking Benjamin