So I'm the type of person that hates loneliness. I hate when I desperately need a friend and I can't find anyone in my contacts to trust. I recently noticed that I no longer have any close friends. No one really knows me. My last best friend decided to drop me, like the previous best friend did as well. That's a whole other story...

I have decided to be alone. Even if it's for this week. I have found so much freedom in this choice. I am not responsible to respond to anyone's texts (which has only been from two so far who haven't contacted me since my lack of reply to their first message, understandable). I don't need anyone to know who I really am or to be there for me. I think I got tired of asking people for help and they say "I will" but then do nothing.

I am not hiding. Anyone is welcome to ask how I am and I will tell you honestly because I have nothing to lose.

Deciding to not have close friends has given me freedom because I'm no longer the needy one. This is my choice to not pursue anyone, which leads to no disappointment when they leave.

I have found a positive result from this. I can be me and do what I want. I can tell myself about it haha. And it's all good. I only come on here because.. I think we all need someone else out there to know what we are thinking. Even if it's a stranger who I will never see or hear from again.